Emotion - the fulcrum of our efforts. I find it effortless to ignore such a powerful thing. How often I live my life without confronting matters with the use of such a tool. There is no mountain that cannot be moved by its presence. It can drive you where you are headed quickly - which isn't always a good thing. Without the use of emotion though, life can be slow and literally stuck. Because of our uncertainty and ill confidence, we go to great lengths to avoid its presence, for it can be ruin a life quickly, but even worse - slowly. Some of us have experienced this first hand.

The kinds of emotion esperienced is not uncontrolled as many assume. Thats insane and corrupt thinking. Its the mind that controls our thoughts, and our mind is in now way connected to our emotions. The circumstances give rise to events which we chose to navigate through - but a murderer for example cannot claim that he could not help it upon a first degree murder. Thoughts give rise to emotions. Then they turn to a feeling. A feeling is exactly that - thought and emotion. It is because of this we feel we have experienced it before because of a trigger. The thought and emotion are attached. It often leads us down a chain of events which we often repeat.

This is not without a sense of irony - we want one thing and mean another. Kind of like the freudian slip. To mean one thing and mean your mother. How often do we trace though the events without considering where the paradox is coming from. We are divided. The flesh is innately selfish and evil. Of course not we say - but I state it to be an endothermic thing. It sucks in energy to fuel itself. The spirit on the other hand, the "oneness" or highest achievement of all existence, gives its energy to the mortal in hopes to regain its efficacy in peace. This is why we are divided. The easiest solution is to serve the flesh, and we will go to great lengths to mask our intention of doing so. Our plot long and arduous till the end of our materialistic lives only to lose it all. We need to let go our lives as Christ has mentioned so we can gain it for the amalgamation of the flesh and spirits will, and gain it back again. Only then will we be free as a human race. Till then, we will pass from moment to moment, step by step in a pursuit of reaching a new limit to our decaying estates.

So what the hell am I saying by all of this? Emotion is the engine of our car. Jesus said once that with faith, one can move mountains. He also said without love, we are nothing more then noise. Emotion should be used constructively with focused intention towards the will of the spirit - not of the flesh, for of the flesh it is simply destructive. Our direction will be scattered until a firm commitment is made to one. We cannot serve two masters, and as James one of Christ's disciples wrote; this man is like a wave of the sea, tossed to and fro.

Use your emotions wisely.

Life and -----

Don't like me? Why not? Personified, I am you. I am what you have made of your true potential. There is no way out of your ways - you are bent and thwarted, cunning and inconclusive, frail and fragile. You don't even like me. You like the one you created, but I am not who you intended. The one you created was a dream - was never built to last in this world of decay. Now - we stand on the brink again and you have to decide, will you wake from the dream or continue to sleep amongst the leaves, the dry dead embers caught to burn so quickly when the next spark consumes your naked appearance. A beautiful moment in a seemingly endless reality fixed upon your survival as a cripple, a lost soul begging in the corner for his dues of unearned patronage from a crowd - whispering the guilt you bear like a bag of pennies. This was not what you intended, yet we cling to the earth so tenderly as being the life which has given birth to our first breath. Plucked from the Kingdom of splendor, our home was once amongst a field of flowers. We were unharvested and unarmed, for there was none other to fear then the hurt itself we brought manifest into flesh. Now a field of concrete stands in our place, and we know not who we are. Kindled flame, burning so bright, we consumed our nature once and one again we will be the one in the future to resist and the one to persist the coming of death, as swift and secure as life itself. We are the cure and the cancer, living and ----.

From the Inside Out

Hand in hand, cold and damp.  The wind wisps past our entwined forms in the night. Dark and lonely with only the stars above us to give us light.  Our affinity and affection needs no romance to cure its acute presence - everything feels so real now.  Even when the stars avail from the black sails of an approaching storm, I can see you clearly.  Your face is always in my mind; your touch is more healing then the elements stirring around us.  The damp mist of heavy waves hurling at the hard earth - the hurricane winds battering at my cloak, protecting us - the earth and sea shaking from a rapturous clap - the distant lights of a blue storm lit like the war had finally begun; but nothing can break this bond of peace.  There is nothing left to sing to - for the song is now inside.  

Henna - Mehndi - Temp Tattoo Booth

Soon enough when my shipment arrives of Henna, I'll be starting a henna booth downtown waterloo in hopes to earn a small wage and have some summer fun - encourage the lively spirit downtown waterloo has during the summers. I have yet to approach the authorities on licensing, but I've had a lot of given inspiration to do this, and i believe this is what I am supposed to be doing during this time. I regret having not dwelt upon the answers earlier since much of the summer has passed, but still I have much yet and I'm going to give it a go.

I hope to encourage some of youth to consider a temporary tattoo to last 2 weeks instead of their entire lives. It makes me sick to see all the tattoos on the websites of these tattoo parlors around kitchener waterloo. I gotta say, someone has to stop them - and I hope at least they might encourage the thought to make a tattoo temporary when they see my small business. I'll have an ambient station on for a bit of mood - the location is perfect, right across from the rude native restaurant, earthwinds fair trade shop and ten thousand villages with weather (stone shop) inside the mall. I couldn't think of a better place, and it'll add to the cultural and spiritual diversity as people will want emblems and symbols to show their background and beliefs. I'll have examples set out in books so I can copy whatever design they wanted placed on a limb - nowhere around vitals so its safe.

So thats a short summary of the business I will be pursuing soon. Write please if you have any suggestions!

My Sungazing Practicum!

Yesterday started for the first time my commitment to a sungazing practice. Along with that I will read a few pages of the course in miracles as use the time for prayer and meditation about what I learned. I may use a portion of the hour for remote viewing too. It will be a full hours use towards further recognition of my true spiritual self. Sounds selfish, but I have to know myself inside out before I can expect to help others see themselves and others alike so we can work together on this planet.

The hardest part about any spiritual practice or any practice itself is commitment. Shouldn't be hard, but for me and my little world - its not easy sometimes to believe all that they say, and let alone to believe in myself. Its so much easier to take it a grain a day and miss a grain every second and third day. If we really wanted to change our lives - persistence, clarity, attention, integrity and passion are vital ingredients to help you achieve that goal. I've tampered at so many things so briefly - read the first 5 pages of hundreds of books, but unless you commit yourself to the pages, to the study, you should be willing to read the book over and over again so that as your mind changes, you see things differently every time you read it. Sungazing is just one those practices I've looked over and studied briefly, and now I've made the decision to give a full practice so I can receive all the benefits I can from its ancient roots.