Yarn

Look closely; you'll see I'm nothing but a ball of yarn. Unraveled, you'll find the hands weaving me into the tapestry.

Silence

What happens when there is no paper to write on? What happens when we have nothing to project onto? No expressive medium to exonerate, exhaust or exalt from our minds? --- Nothing at all. Is that what we fear? The conclusion that there is no practical method to push causality onto? The fear of nothing at all? Emptiness?

The one who has understood silence is that there cannot be such a thing. Silence like all things has an essence, which cannot be spoken. To the Buddhas, they would say that silence is a rich silence, because it silences our voice and slowly opens the channels of our minds. Channels whose duty is in counsel, not judgement; eternal in vow to intercede for the benefit of us, bound by love. But most of all, we wait upon the holy spirit to undo all errors which we could not correct, and help us see the truth of the all as it reminds us.

The antithesis to all our thesis'. The opposite to all our creations - they all must come down to reveal the creation within the creation. The creator within the creation.

Mirror -- qwuot

"When you look in the mirror and hate what you see, you need addictions to survive. If you don't like the main character in your story, then everything and everyone in it coerces a nightmare. But if you accept yourself 100%, then you trust yourself. And whatever you want to manifest in the world will happen."

-- Don Miguel Ruiz

I am

I am that i am. Am I that I am? That I am, am I? I am not trying to make a foolish statement, but estranged artist who once created a hypnopompic / mild hallucinogenic brainwave altering device created this free form of association with simply the words "I am that I am" and mixing them up. You soon find that you can do this with many phrases to find an alternate and perhaps more practical way of looking at the phrase turned upon itself.

The words are superfluous but humour me for the moment. There is the certainty of "I am that i am". Then we ask ourselves who we are, then declaring who we are and synchronically ask ourselves if we really are just that. This is so beautifully framed to fit our many states of transitional esteems and our environment being the affirmative of our beliefs.

I'm finding this out for myself. As age may not have anything to do with when these questions are asked i hope to shed the light I've found on these matters of identity.

Since a child, we have been set to the close task of observation. Taught simply to do as your told, we are mouthpieces to the pithy maxims repeated generations ago. We under safe guidance have followed thus far to whatever extent we've kept whatever. The point is that by observing, the constant reminder to do as your told without reason -- without "why" will bore our own understanding to the belief that it is in these actions alone that the reward is reaped, mearly by replication; acting. Pretenscious invocation. Soon we find in themselves they hold no yield of reward or treat.

So once we believe that we can be whatever we want, we cloth ourselves with the personality suited for the person; all the plethora of cultural movements and associations stereotyped with our "type". You wear big glasses - suddenly your a nerd in public school, and those stereotypes carry on as we live the parts.

Essentially we are all playing the role of flesh and bone with a consciousness inside which has nothing to do with the body. In that case, everything we project through the senses are interpreted as languages so we can codify it, and program it later. Every movement then becomes a gesture a form of communication naturally then; Unconsciously, subconsciously or consciously. I'd like to call it "forms of expression" for this context since we are seeking to communicate through an open statement or question, "I am" or "Am I?"

The statement "I am" is a proclamation of being. Being does not require form or substance. We are, whether it be in life or in death. It does not require forms of expression to be. We simply are already. It requires no language. It does not require perceiving or projecting oneself. Its a permanent inflection of the self observing qualities of itself - hence when the statement says "i am that I AM. Its a mirror of eternal perfection. This can only be realized though by a state where one can see only oneself. How is that possible? It needs a reflection - where can that reflection come from? We need a form of expression to see qualities which others will observe so they might acknowledge that back to you. That is why we ask "am I?"

It seems the only one who is capable of understanding and fulfilling those words with complete security is God himself when we says "I am that I am" in Exodus 3:14. God is perfect and complete, but only in completion of the atonement, of which we are all a part of being his sons -- all a part of him.

I suppose part of understanding our role is exactly this; God experiencing himself/herself through the sonship, and manifesting oneness through our own free will to unite as perfect reflections of the one God.

The atonement in is basic form is just this; "At - one - ment". Can't spell it our better. Only the holy spirit can help us undo the false associations and images we have given each other. The day will one day come when we will all live as spirit in God's presence. I hope we all be there of the flipside.

Unlimited

The human spirit is more then just flesh and bone. The hybrid of human is of the divine. Even in the word "hu" meaning angelic and "man" shows us our origins are higher then just the elements we are threaded from. Indeed, life is about the realization of just this and learning to unlock all heaven on earth.

I've found that beneath our fears are knots of "selfless expression" for lack of words. Its born out of our lack of esteem for our kind, and thus we suppress our capabilities lower to suffice as a norm perhaps. We fear God; being closer to the realization of his work in us. Prodigal son symptom or something.

Think of your weakest subject. Math. Art. Biology. Multitasking. Memory. Fighting.. i dunno. There are tests to say whether one is better and certain functions then others, and that is not to skew this fact. Discouragement of any kind stunts the growth of an individual. If you could remember the times of how things were surprised without good sound reason you could comprehend, you were less prone to repeat the task if it by association delivered a negative result. I say without sound good reason because how else would we be taught without sharing sound logic of which to build on -- otherwise we'd be reinventing the colour of traffic lights all the time.

The point of this is to say that if you can drop those barriers which discourage you from performing any task, we would all be fluent functional happier people -- I hypothesize. I would go to the extent of saying this same method of realization and release is a simplified, but easy way of saying how to become absolutely unlimited in every way possible, even to the point of freeing the human spirit from the flesh completely.

Attached to Fabricated Experiences

Been reading a lot of material lately related to alternate states of consciousness, and other dimensions on consciousness which we exist in and can be elevated to experiencing on a perhaps lucid or full out awakening to another dimension.

I'd like to quote a segment from a book. Siddhartha by Hermann Hesse is where is it taken, and is now on my desktop background.

Slower, he walked along in his thoughts and asked himself: “But what is this, what you have sought to learn from teachings and from teachers, and what they, who have taught you much, were still unable to teach you?” And he found: “It was the self, the purpose and essence of which I sought to learn. It was the self, I wanted to free myself from, which I sought to overcome. But I was not able to overcome it, could only deceive it, could only flee from it, only hide from it. Truly, no thing in this world has kept my thoughts thus busy, as this my very own self, this mystery of me being alive, of me being one and being separated and isolated from all others, of me being Siddhartha! And there is no thing in this world I know less about than about me, about Siddhartha!”

I hope it speaks to you as it did me. I don't even know if i want to write more, since this rather sums up quite neatly the depth of our human experience. Fabricated.

One could say that its hard acting like your human. The natural self of all us is truly spirit. Our minds are the gap between the two end -- body and spirit. The reason why the silence buddhist is such a "rich silence" is because there in the silence of "non-doing" is the undoing of the ego. We slip away into the emptiness of the body, and truly do find the rich space which we finally are able to hear the voice of God, in this rich silence of pure being -- pure being -- "pure having". A buddhist master once said " It is often said, 'Don't just sit there; do something!' We like to say 'Don't just do something; sit there!'" -- I love it.

To leave the rest to you, the last slice; "Your mission is very simple. You are asked to live so as to demonstrate that you are now and he, and I do not chose God's channels wrongly."

Lets wake up to the call. New World, new body, new change.