Lack

I've been pondering the insufficiencies of our malnourished minds and came across this thought, fresh and new.

Lately I've been floating the net and becoming aware of a need this new world quenched, before it consumes us. It is all over us -- the need for something we lack. The question I want to pose is whether we are creating something which is causing this lack.

I've discovered recently that we are built to obstruct and overcome the obstacles that we created to get over the damn mess that we created. Sounds weird, but having created one thing, we need then to be accountable for the responsibilities it has; to be a father to our creations. Not so often that happens, so we break them down in a conquering fashion to prove ourselves equal in strength to friend, foe and vacuum cleaner (sorry - had to add the spice).

I suppose i added the vacuum cleaner note for a subconscious reason. The vacuum cleaner i'd like to draw as a comparison to our need to suck up all the useless stuff (which is actually what it does!). We have a lot of junk lying around the house of our minds; the junk which has lost their resemblance and meaning to our lives. I find a lot the stuff we throw out relevant, but useless now because we are shifting too fast into this needy "artsy" and "practical" century which has been steadily increasing since who knows when. Its not that the stuff isn't good and useful, just no one cares to fix it, and theres more room at the dump that nobody sees. Eventually even the vacuum cleaner goes there.

Of the wiser though, I am noticing some characters speaking up to say that we need a new something. A new heaven, a new hero, a new psychedelic, a new social system, a new war -- i dunno what they are saying now, but there needs to be something big, and it needs to come soon before we suffer further our own kind.

This is what i fear it all stems from. There is so much out there; so much to know, experience and believe in. As much our experience is much lived from our central one-person shooter viewpoint, its hard to trust anyone these days without having "put your hands through the holes in Jesus' hands" to believe it. So having been told so much, we, out of necessity have to be very skeptical of the world we perceive out there. Is it really real? And the picture we see is so much apart from us, it is almost folklore and lottery tales to believe it be true. Now we go searching all of our lives so desperately for the truth and find ourselves exhausted and burnt out from our fantasies about the lucky rainbow and whatnot that its almost more convenient to just sit down and enjoy a spot of green grass. Having nothing to believe in then, we resort to grazing grass just like the other animals because we don't know better then what privilege it is to be human. Might as well just make it up from logic, right?

I don't think we are capable as humans to find our way out of this spell we've got ourselves into. Its true, that we do need something to believe in, but there is just too much to recycle anywhere we go -- even if we can chew through this apple-core earth, or our silly stereotypes we see of each other, or ourselves -- its just going to kill ourselves anyway your look at it. We need a hero, and there has been many, but we throw them out as heretics every time.

The need to preserve the teachings of these old teachers is important so that we remain fixed and focused for as long a peace it can afford. I am not saying that peace is of its own token and we need only achieve it for peace sake for pete's sake whoever pete is, (pete's moss!) but that its for the long careful appreciation of something we can sit with and learn to love and accept. It also gives our lives some consistency and stability, home and belonging. I would compare our beliefs and belongings to that of a real person, for they have character, body and potential just the same as you, if you give them the chance to live with you and be a part of you. I think we have a junk club symptom right now rummaging through things when they are no more of value then the value we see in them.

I'm really trying to wrap up this thought, but there is so much potential in just it -- an if you are reading this, im also sorry if this brought you through some sort of deluge, but here is the resurrection: Having no beliefs is easy. It lets you live your life as you see fit. But it will not let you live long since there are too many herbs in the forest yet to try. You can ingest them all. There is something called a snake berry. ---- Having beliefs though is much harder, for you have to stand by them to the point of death other then they are not as so much real as you are. Its like if someone believes in you. Its almost the equivalent or saying "i love you". But even at death though - you must even let those things go though, for not everything can be taken with you. Thats a whole 'nother note.

Hold firm to the thing you know true. Search your heart day by day, having it tested by the truest of friends to see how strong the fire can grow, but having these things planted firm in the ground as you are with the closest friends -- for if you lack one thing, you lack everything.

To sum up - the world is looking for something - we look outside for it - but its not outside - the world is changing too fast - everything seems insufficient - need for consistency - need for structure - what is real - what needs be preserved - beliefs or no beliefs - what will keep you alive - what will keep one whole.

If nothing else works, listen to the song in my playlist called "I need something".